A little of something we call knowledge

Today, this day, I will be wondering, is this the right choice I have made? Honestly, I have been asking myself all this sort of question for the past few years, and I why I didn't considered asking myself when I am choosing for my course? Why do I get influenced so easily by the elderly?

Is this a form of respect? A form of agreement? A form of acceptance? Am I living for them? Are they living for me? Why I wouldn't this kind of questions came to my mind when I am appying for a place in university?

But somehow, if I ever given a chance to do something different and study something different from what am I studying right now, will I ever have the same thought of thinking like I am having right now? Asking the same damn shitty question over and over again? Will I?

I don't know? 

I really don't know!!

I was studying pharmacology, and it is one of the core subject, and when I was trying to bury my entire mind into it, I was wondering, will this ever give me any benefits to use in the ward when I really start with my practical? Will this ever help me? 

Then, it started all over again.

This is one of the mindset which should be free from anyone, even if you are major in one of the course, it doesn't means that you have to stick with the particular course forever, I should never ask myself, will this ever benefits me? Because what I am learning right now is what we called it a "knowledge" and I might not be applying the theory into my practical, but it definitely a credit when I intending to pursue for my master study, when I start discussing about biochemical reaction with friends or family, I would be able to question and answer them in a confident way, because, yes, I have the knowledge, and YES, that's what human should be like.