Day 16- Almost being hit

Skipped so many days of not updating my blog, the mundane reason behind is because I was too tired. The very moment I reached my room, the one thing I wanted to do is to just do nothing but yet I still make an effort to update my day to day short story in my Instagram account.

Well, this day deserve a post itself because there were just so many things running in my mind.

So this is day 16, I  had my assessment in the afternoon, thus I was assigned office hour which eventually means that I will be floating around in the ward, asking people what can I help and being pulled to do all scut work. Don't worry, I already get so used to it especially when the ward you are nesting in is super under staff.

Alright, this is what happened

Supposedly to leave the ward at 2.30 pm because will be having assessment at 3.00 pm and you tell me, who doesn't like leaving the ward early? Even half an hour early is a joy when you start working. Anyway, before I leave there's this confused patient wanted to go shower, but just so you know he had already showered and in ward, you are to only showered once especially when you need assisted shower. Anyway, this man was with oxygen, he had pretty low saturation without supplementary oxygen I would say, and super unstable when it comes to walking, moreover he had a designated fall alarm, oh yeah and also IV plug being connected to a running medication.

So he was trying to stand up, and of course, I ran there and immediately (a normal reaction) asked him not to as I afraid that he would fall. You know, I am just doing my responsibility, well mannerly telling my patient to not stand as it might jeopardize him, but in return I got shouted and yelled at and almost being hit for stopping him. Of course, at this point all I thought of is making sure  him do not get out of the bed, firstly because he had a plug that's still connected to the IV and imagine if she just walked away like this, the whole plug will be pull off from her skin, so no no and secondly, when he stand up, he was so unstable that he fell back down to the bed, so do you think he can actually continue walking to the toilet? The answer definitely is a big NO. So when he started to raise his voice, I started to raise my voice a little bit too (another normal reflect, that my mom called it low EQ lol), but not in a rude way, telling him to please just sit down and wait. Again, in return, he pointed at me and started shouting and asked me to go away, and when I wanted to response one senior of mine came by and started to sooth the patient in a quite "cute", apologetic way and then eventually allowed him to do whatever he wanted to do. She looked at me and said it's ok, just let him.

At this point when I see, I was shocked?? Speechless for like one to two seconds I think, I was shocked by the way she handled the patient. You think I was in awe of the way she settled the patient? NOOO, I was quite disappointed by it. I was like, why do we allowed him to get out of the bed just because he wanted to when his diagnosis said it all out that he's not encouraged to do so? Another thing, why do we have to sound so apologetic every time even when we did NOTHING WRONG at all? Is it because we were so afraid of their complaint that it will affect our performance result? Or think maturely, maybe this is one of the way to reduce any unwanted commotion?

Many of the time, when the patient was furious about something, it doesn't matter what, we are the one that get blamed for everything by the patient themselves. Maybe I am still new, and still not get used to it, but living in a place where complaints are mostly being treated as their Top 1 priority is hard. Every single time, we have to take care of their emotion not making sure that they are not depressed, but is to make sure that they are not angry with us, even when they shouted at us for nothing, we still need to fake a smile and say sorry, this really compromise one integrity. Just so you know, we are human, we are doing job that not everyone wanted to do, and we do not required much from you, we don't need you constantly thanking us because this is our job to take care of you, all we need is you to be good, and listen because all we wish is for you to discharge as early as possible. That's our top 1 priority.

Up till now, there's still a lot going in my mind, just so you know, do not ever compromise your integrity or your principle for anything. You might think I am hard headed, and some people even tell me this would be hard for me to survive in this industry. But trust me, I need not to survive in one particular industry, I just need to live and make sure I won't sink and I think, I am doing a pretty good job at that.

Alright, ranting done. Thank you for reading and good night.